You're right, he's not ready to work on it. He really isn't.
Detached friendliness is going to be my goal. We're spending a lot of time together over the next two days so that's a good thing for me to practice. Must study up on topics unrelated to R. Are Ebola and Isis too negative? LOL
I have been light on the GAL, I'll admit. I'm a home body. I also don't have any friends who aren't married (and happy about it) so I feel very lonely when I'm around them sometimes. Also, I hate that "we feel so sorry for your situation" look I get from some friends like I'm some wounded bird... well, today I'm feeling very much like a wounded bird so, whatever.
Claire, thank you for reminding me that positive thoughts and actions lead to positive feelings. I needed to hear that. Gah, you know just what to say to this girl.
About meds... I'm on them. I've been on them since PPD with D. They are crucial and are probably the only thing keeping me afloat (besides all of you) right now.
How do I complicate his narrative? I've never heard that before. Do you mean continue with my 180s? I can do that.
His memory about the past is situationally correct but it has this evil, dark, sinister, shadowy cast to it all. It makes me sick to my stomach. Is that how I was? It's almost like my eyes glowed green and smoke came out of my fingertips when he recalls the past. It's painful to be seen that way.
