Look MM, it doesn't matter how much we want you to keep your dignity and hold out till he cries "uncle", it is what makes you feel right.....happy....and cherished. If this man does it for you, then it is your free choice to do whatever you want. You don't have to do what we want you to do
I feel like everyone on your thread has been trying to convince you of something... and you spend a lot of time trying to convince US of something else. But you don't need to convince us. I wonder if you feel that, if you convince us to change our opinions, then it will validate you and your relationship. Like, you ask for suggestions, but instead of agreeing and following the overwhelmingly similar response from everyone who responds, you defend and try to persuade. Because you want it to be ok. I get that.
But it is ok.
I don't think that what you say will do much to change my opinion. But my opinion doesn't matter, does it?
If this R is working for you, if you are comfortable with your choices and actions, then that is what matters. Good luck to you.