This has been an emotionally draining day. I'm not going to fight H on D and won't try to stretch things out. He did say he would go to counseling - so I guess I will look into that for January- maybe his affair will have burned out by then and frankly I don't want all this to cast a shadow on the holidays.
He's not the man I used to know and who kows what will emerge after he comes out of his funk (if ever). He's so irrational right now. He felt compelled to tell me he was going to establish residency in Nevada so that when the girls are out of school he can move out of this state "forever" because he "despises" it so much. Really? In the middle of telling me he is moving forward with a divorce he needs me to know his plans for 15 years from now?
I know things will get better, I do. Rationally, I know I'm a strong woman. I always have been. But tonight, I' really not looking forward to coparenting for the next 15 years. How did such a wonderful man turn into an adolescent? Is there something wrong with me that I didn't see it earlier?
I'm still glad I married him, if for no other reason than the magnificent kids we share.....
