You know, you still didn't write down the list of issues in your M. If you don't do that, we can't tell you how to make things better.

Did you actually read the DB/DR books?

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER