Thank you Young at Heart. I really needed to hear those words. I called him today to apologize. Yes, I need to get my emotions in check. I knew that was going to be the hardest part. I need to do my 180s and stick to it.
I talked to my lawyer today and as long as I don't get served papers, then I don't have to attend which gives us a little more time.
My son is a year and a half old so taking him anywhere is hard lol. We did get to go outside and play with the puppy. The puppy followed him around and he laughed. It was very refreshing.
Tomorrow I am going to see my husband to drop my son off. My plan is to hand my son over and leave. NO lingering, NO talking. I am going to be an emotional wreck. My son hasn't spent the night away from me since he was born. Although I am looking forward to the weekend, it is just crappy. I am going to have to keep busy so I don't linger on it.
I just don't know what to think anymore. My husband is in the Navy, and he will be here defiantly until April. After that, he might move to California, or he might stay in San Antonio. I hope he stays so he can see our son. But then, it's like... okay then what? Are you just going to keep requesting San Antonio? I mean by the time he has to leave again, my son will be just starting school. He's not going to be able to see him, and he might get deployed on top of that. I think he realizes this, but is taking it as it comes. IDK. I know it may seem like I'm thinking too much into the future, but these are things I have to think about due to our situation. So, maybe we don't get back together immediately, maybe it'll take a year or two. I think that's what it's going to take for us to fix everything anyway, and to fully heal from everything that's been said.
So, idk. Still love him and hate him, but my love out weighs the bad.
