Thanks for the replies. I don't have a lot of private access to a computer much of the time. I realize my situation is still better than many. I am currently trying to make sure that it doesn't go from bad to worse. I have been doing a lot of journaling, reading, and exercises in the books I am reading. I realize my part in the problems and stuff about myself that was pretty astounding to me (like how much external validation I was looking for from her and how low my esteem has been). I am working on myself because that is the one thing I can change (although she doesn't believe this). I have been trying to maintain a positive attitude. We still hug and breifly kiss, which I have increased to make sure that is happening when I leave, return, or go to sleep (although she doesn't fully hug back, more business like). I roll over and get close to her when she comes to bed (she doesn't push me away). We've made plans for next summer, but she still is cold towards me. She often refuses invitations to do stuff together (watch Tv or go on walks) and lots to play her video games instead. I am confused. I am trying to do good things, but am getting conflicting messages. Thanks again everyone for your feedback. I appreciate it.
M-44 W-44 Sons- 11&14 Married- 18 Together- 27 Separation mentioned- 9-29-14 Still together, but not "together" "if you feel rotten and forgotten, remember there'll be better days."
