Yes.. I have gotten a lot of good feedback. I do want my situation to change, and it has...it has gotten him back, just not fully...yet I am and have been doing the stuff to make things change & it has and so has he.
Some others have the opinion that I am missing a lot of the magic that happens because I am analyzing too much. To just enjoy the moments without thinking where it will lead.
I hold Matt's opinion in my head and do my best to act on this: " I want him in my life IF he wants the same thing that I do... but, at the same time if he is not willing to give me what I need, I will have no problem going elsewhere for it."
I agree somewhat in your opinion about cherishing me... he does, just to a point. This is what I want to change. <<< I realize it comes from me valuing myself more.
Valuing myself more is a discipline action that I can't seem to maintain. I get wishy washy as my heart tells me to value my family more... UGH... I will get back on track.
I will go & enjoy myself on this overnight adventure. However, I will hold myself in a position of reservation... not be so easy.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
