You have gotten a lot of really good and honest feedback from some very smart folks. It seems to me like you want your situation to magically change without having to do any of the (difficult) stuff to make it change.
I don't know you at all, but I have read through your thread. And I wanted to tell you, as kindly but as honestly as possible, that your approach to your R comes across as very immature-- it reminds me of myself in high school.
You will be so much better off if you start spending time looking inward, figuring out who you are, what you want, establishing a life and healthy relationships outside of this man.
It's hard to see you go around in circles, especially when there have been so many people looking out for you and trying to help.
Have you spoken to a DB coach? Are you in IC?
I would urge you to explore why you are so willing to let yourself be strung along by this man, who's maybe not so evil, but doesn't seem to cherish you in the slightest.
Your thread is tough to read. I feel for you, I really do. I wish you would value yourself more.
