Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

Just a quick update before I head to work. I continue to keep the atmosphere at home comfortable. I am still making the effort to give H time and attention when he talks, and space when he is quiet. The weekend was good. H went to visit an old friend on Saturday. An old friend! Who I know well! Who's ex wife I will be with this weekend! I guess he is not doing too well. H seemed a little down when he got home, and he was home before 10 on a Saturday night.

Sunday H cleaned out his work van while S and I ran errands and bought some great new Halloween decorations. S and I like to sit in hot tub, it's only heated by sun so perfect temp in the summer. I made myself a margarita and decided to offer H one. What guy doesn't like to be served a margarita by his wife in a bathing suit while he is working in garage? A 180 for me. Overall it was a nice weekend.

My PMA is staying high. I am sleeping, eating and so much more productive at work when things are calm at home. We leave for camping tomorrow. H says he will come out on Saturday. I told him that everyone wants him there. I only said that because of his comment that he wasn't going because I was uncomfortable.

I also have been doing 1 little something each day to let H know I am thinking of him. Nothing huge, just little everyday things. It makes me feel good. I think I am getting the hang of detachment with an open door. I very much feel that and it is working for me.