Moving towards mediation, need to stop limbo

[shodan]

Update...I have been out of town for work since Tuesday. I did not text or all my W yesterday and ignored a text from her (telling me that a co-worker had been fired). Last night she texted me to say "cannot sleep, this s*cks". I of course was asleep. I went out last night for a few hours with some work colleagues and had a blast. I did not respond to her text when I saw it this morning. Then today she called me but I did not pick up. She then texted me to tell me her trip to NYC tomorrow has been cancelled.

I just need to stay the course obviously. It gets harder when I am home since we share the same bed, have kids, etc. I keep telling myself that nothing that I say will cause her to change her mind, stop the A and want to work on the M. She has to make those decisions. I just pray to God to guide her and give her the strength and humility to make the right decision for her M and her family.