'I think we have a counseling appointment today, forget time? But, I need to get this all out and its hard for me in counseling to get everything I want to say put into words...I freeze up...
This is what I wrote to you last night:
Another week of very little communication...it's not just me, it's both of us....I can't go on like this and neither should you. Living in limbo is no way to live. I need a home, I need my children, I need to be myself again and have routine. How much longer do I put my life on hold? You too.... I am actively making changes and moving forward. I found a condo.It is great for me and the kids. I can move in this weekend. I'm going to take some furniture from the house- the green couch and chair, and the sofa table. I can take 1 dog full time and rotate the other dogs with kids. We should discuss money of course, but I worked a budget already.
We need to discuss the kids' schedule. I need to see them on a consistant basis now that I have a place for us. I need you to help me in coming up with a schedule and back me up on it. Otherwise I'll have to have an attorney put it in writing. I have an appointment with an attorney on Monday to discuss our situation. Being totally honest, I am leaning towards filing for dissolution.
I really have no idea what the future holds for us. As I have said a million times, I love you. You are my family. I will never rule out the possibility of us getting back together, but right now, at this moment that's not the path we're on.... I need a fresh start.'
