still holding on - 4

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Good luck at the MC.

I am hoping to get there again too with her but I do worry it will set her back. It helped me when we went, but I ended up going by myself more than she went (she'd not show up, or want to cancel, or just say no toward the end). I was in a much different state of mind at the time and was very emotional (this was all pre-db).

I think I will bring it up to her today. Ask if she is open to going to a different MC.

side note: I've been feeling like an employee at my house again lately and feel like I've internally taken some steps backwards too. I've been getting that punch in the gut feeling every day again.

She's commented on how I know how to do the right things all the time. I don't know why this doesn't help her see things more clearly. I don't know if this is what she wants.

Thanks