Hi LT, I've really been trying to see things the way you say. I really have. I have been successful many times in my life and I've been down before as well. This time just feels different since I no longer have my partner.
One of the guys I work with suggested I try joining Uber and make some cash on the weekends giving rides to people. Thing is I need to drive 30 miles to the closest urban area to do this and then hope I get some fares. I just never thought I'd be brought this low again. When I was younger I would have been much more equipped to handle this kind of thing. Here I am at almost 53 and I'm seriously thinking of driving a "cab" (which is what Uber actually is)?
You are right about the fact that I won't die from this. I still have my D's and I still have myself. I've been down before and I've always been able to get back on my feet and do better than before. This time I have no cushion, no room for error. I'll get through this I know I will I just need one small thing to go my way and I'll be fine!