I'm a very emotional and hot-headed person. I can be counted on to react first and regret it later. Or at least, I could -- I'm making it one of my 180s.

Now, when I'm in a situation where I'd usually just let the storm consume me and then feel sheepish and stupid later, I try to remind myself that losing my long term wants (a better, healthier relationship with BF , if he ever decides he wants one) for my emotions of the moment just isn't worth it.

I get you, though; it's really hard to maintain control in the moment when all that anger and hurt is sweeping through you.

ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies