Hi Dawgy.
You're going through a rough patch, that's for sure.
I would take Wonka's advice and take a break - spend a day in nature.
Read from the book Tao Te Ching (English translation by Stephen Mitchell) - it has a calming influence.
And just realize the folks on this forum are all just trying to help you get through this. We all know it's not easy.
I found talking to my IC helped me a lot - dealing with my emotions. Well worth the expense.


M: 59 W: 53
M: 9 yrs
T: 14 yrs
No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine)
W moved out 11/18/2013
D-Day 12/14/2013
W moved back home 12/1/2014