Hi Dawgy. You're going through a rough patch, that's for sure. I would take Wonka's advice and take a break - spend a day in nature. Read from the book Tao Te Ching (English translation by Stephen Mitchell) - it has a calming influence. And just realize the folks on this forum are all just trying to help you get through this. We all know it's not easy. I found talking to my IC helped me a lot - dealing with my emotions. Well worth the expense.
M: 59 W: 53 M: 9 yrs T: 14 yrs No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine) W moved out 11/18/2013 D-Day 12/14/2013 W moved back home 12/1/2014