So, my husband called me and told me that our divorce hearing is set for the 24th. This made me panic. He also said that he was feeling depressed about not being there for our son. I encouraged him to tell me how he was feeling and that I understood, but did not pressure him. I did call him and tried to tell him that I have changed for the better whether we stay together or not. He didn't hear me b/c my phone kept going in and out. I told him I would call him when I got home, but thought that I shouldn't, so I just texted me and told him that we shouldn't talk anymore tonight and I will text him on Thursday to set a drop off date.
I think if he wouldn't have dropped the hearing date, I would have handled myself better, but I panicked. That means we only have 10 days together left as husband and wife. I could hear it in his voice that he wasn't happy, so maybe his depression over our son is a step in the right direction.I'm just afraid that if I don't tell him that I'm willing to work it out he'll forget. But then I think that I've all ready told him a thousand times all ready, so he knows.
I went to the nail salon and got some nails and my eyebrows waxed. That made me feel better about myself, and I know it's different from how I normally look, so i expect my husband to take notice. (I mean my family did, so he certainly should). I made some new goals, b/c I guess those were my relationship goals. It's very hard to determine if I should remain silent or say something in the situations sometimes.
Trying to get my 180s in check and do them. Plan on making a list and implementing ASAP. I keep praying, and I know this is working. I just hope it works in time before we split "officially".
