I feel you, brother. Why not just Be Still. Try 25yrs logic for a little while and let God work in this. There's always time after that to follow a more aggressive Starsky plan or you can go scorched earth. Whatever you choose, being still right now won't cost you much.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3