Did some ME work yesterday. Went back into my online practice for math assessment and made some progress. Had been 31 days since I had done it last, it told me, so I had to relearn some of the stuff again. At least I did something for me and my life I have ahead of me.
Went to bible study today. Man, the study we are doing just hits home. REMIX is the word of the day... I thought my life was going along fine and now REMIX... let's see where this takes me.
Texted with H and he is not coming for D4's birthday party, but we already knew that. He is going to come next weekend instead which works ok because the kids have a 3 day weekend that date anyway. I asked if he was open to taking the kids to the pumpkin patch together and he said yes. That's good, better for the kids for us all to be together. I plan to not discuss anything regarding financial settlements or our R unless he brings it up. No pressure. I want him to want to spend time as a family, not run away. Even if we never reconcile it is best for the kids for us to do these things together as friends if we can.
Talked to my sister about this yesterday. She can't wrap her head around his decisions and says what he is doing doesn't make sense (I did not tell her about OW) and I told her that MLC does not make any sense, no matter how she tries she still will not understand or make sense of it, I still can't. I told her that the hallmarks of MLC (to me) are 180's in his personality and what used to mean something to him no longer does and complete selfishness. She's still trying to make sense of it and we know it doesn't make sense.
Onward and upward on MY journey!
Me- 40 H- 41 S8, D5, S4 M 19 y T 23 Bomb drop 6/2013 H asked for/filed for D 9/2014 22 yo OW discovered 9/19/14 they're engaged and living together
