So I'm feeling better with each day that passes and the fog is starting to lift. I complemented my wife last night on the house and neighborhood she found to move her and the kids to. There are plenty of friends for the kids. I also apologized for not being the leader I needed to be in our marriage and she said she forgave me. The tone of the conversation was in the frame of me accepting that we are going to get a divorce and just talking to her as my ex-wife. I had a very very hard time accepting this is going to be the new reality. Time makes it easier. The DB'ing does also. Detaching, regardless of whether it brings them back or not, is such an important part of this process because without it you are completely stuck where they dropped you. She's had months if not years to get to this point emotionally and I'm just now catching up. I'm beginning to see the fact that life will be ok whether she comes back or not. A part of me still hates that thought but another part of me sees relief in it. I'm still not giving up, I'm just not as emotionally tied to winning her back as I was before, which makes 180's and GAL much easier.

I'm off work this week so I'll have the kids much of the time. Let the fun begin!


Me:40
W:39
M:Dec 95
Split: Jul 14
W Filed: 9/16/14
Several Children
(including adopted)