Its so hard to let it go when you have the constant battle of the back and forth with attorneys. I feel like this Divorce is fueled by trying to seek revenge on both sides! I've been literally sick to my stomach over the details of this divorce..its not my intentions to hurt my H, but feel like the attorneys are just doing there jobs trying to represent us and in the meantime I'm emotionally getting beatdown! And the constant reminder of having to see them together at my sons school events! Or driving by our business and she is there. Unfortunately I have to drive by the business everyday to get to work!

I'm not sure how to approach the issue that our son had asked his father not to bring her around and a coiple times now he has intentinally brought her! I try to support my sons wishes but telling his dad he's disrespecting his sons wishes, but then my son tells his dad he's not mad about it! Do I just not say anything about him bringing her around? Our son tells me one thing and his dad another!

And my in-laws who have been like 2nd parents to me won't even speak to me, and have totally accepted the HW into there family! I don't know if my H has informed them of our sons wishes of not having the HW around, I feel like they wouldn't support her if they knew that? But there are details in our D that could affect them financially so maybe they as well are supporting her because they feel like it's revenge in a sense?? I miss them all so much!

Im not sure how to just let go of people I have loved so much for twenty yrs and just forget all the hurtful words and actions? I don't want to make them feel that way..why are they doing this to me?


M:37 H: 38
Married 16/ T20
Son: 16
Caught cheating with HW (also my good friend) 8/20/14
Papers delivered: 9/4/14