Moving towards mediation, need to stop limbo

[shodan]

I responded to her that I didn't want our M to end and that D is notice first choice.

My take is this...she has noticed the changes and sees the good in our M. But she loves the OM and does not want to lose him especially while she does not have those same feelings for me. This is not mind reading, this is based on her actions and her words.

I am scared, I am scared of making the wrong decision and breaking up my M.