That must have been such a blow, finding out such news. I'm so sorry you have learned this.
It's natural to feel all of what you feel, the shock, the fear, the anxiety of the "what it's". I won't try to minimize the impact, because I would feel the same way.
It seems your NP wasn't overly freaked out. To her, she sees this type of thing far too often. To us, we never thought we needed to be concerned about this stuff.
2B, this diagnoses does not change who you are. It does not make you a bad person. It does not make you disgusting. Please don't go down the road of stinkin' thinkin', and worry about future partners, etc. that is not the reality today. Focus on today only, and what you can control.
Feel those feelings. Identify them all. Then, let them wash over you.
Thank you so much for sharing this. It is a huge dose of reality for all of us. I'm sure you have opened many eyes today.
You are an incredible woman. It happens. It doesn't change who you are at all, unless you let it. You are more than this thing that happened. So, so much more.
