Do I walk away from WAW? (1)

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Just feeling blah today. When W got home last night, I went out to do grocery shopping and then to the gym. Before I left, W needed help fixing something on the computer, and right as I was looking over her shoulder to help, she got a text from OM. Thank god she doesn't have a phone that shows the actual text on the screen. I said nothing, finished the fix and left without a word. When I got home the boys were still awake so I went up to be with them for a bit. When I came downstairs she had left a note that she was out for a bit and would be back later.

I'm so glad she's finally seeking some help for her thyroid. I do think it's played a key role here, in triggering her depression, in weakening her so that she's just wanted to retreat from the 24/7 work of our family. I don't think it's directly responsible for the A, but I think it's a major factor in her strange mental state right now. It just kills me to think of her seeking solace with someone else, or sharing her struggle with him. I want to be the one helping her through this. So much pain today.

Meanwhile, I walked oldest to school today. I rotate with some other parents walking a group of kids to school and Tuesday is my day (small 180 for me, taking on responsibilities in the neighborhood like this). It's a bit of a trial run for our S, as it means W has to drop off the other two kids on her own, which is not her typical morning schedule. She's failed this test every Tuesday so far but once. I get home and S6 still needs to be brought to school, 20 minutes late. So frustrating.