On more thing to add...last night my W brought up some issues and said she was confused and that my pushing for D mediation shows that I want a D.
I would have said "No, that's not what I ever wanted." And left it at that. Or the ol' "Yes, this is very hard on all of us."
ARE you really confused, Shodan, or are you just afraid? I think it's an important question, and you don't even have to answer it here. But this is going to be hard enough WHICHEVER way you choose, if you don't have the courage of your convictions that you're at least doing the right thing.
Pray for wisdom; pray for CLARITY. I always found that helps.
