The reason I am having such a hard time with this is b/c I don't know who to DB in my M. I know that sounds weird, but a good part of the reason my husband & I seperated was b/c of his daughter, my step-daughter. Should I do the 180s and everything on him without focus on him? Should I just DB him? This is confusing.
Also, I have not texted my H all day, and he texted me asking to Skype with our son. I said I didn't know. I gave myself time to make the appropriate action. I did let him call him (skype was acting up), but let my son "talk" (he's only 16 months old) to his father, and did not speak to my husband. When we were texting, he told me was excited to see his son this weekend and hoped I wasn't going back on my word to bring him (we live 4 hrs apart). I told him that I had made plans for the weekend and that I wasn't. Was this a bad move? I thought it would be good to show that I as moving forward and not just sit at home like I normally do on weekends. Going to look my best when I go see him.
I really do want my M to work, and I guess it's hard since the contact is so limited. But when I heard m H on the phone, I knew I wanted to be there with him. I miss him.
I went for a run with my son today. It wasn't long, but it's a start. Mostly, I have to get him adjusted to being in a stroller and jogging like that. We went for a walk after dinner, so I really am trying to be as active as possible with him and to lose weight.
I read some more DR today, and it inspires me to save my M. I love this website and the support I have.
