So deal with the death of my W grandmother has been a ride. She asks me to go do things with her about the funeral in the "do you want to go blank with me, or I can drive myself". I told her that I am here for her and in her corner. I'm in limbo because she seems to be actively trying not to fall in love with me. It's like a huge wall pops up when we are having fun together. We talk and can make plans for the future as a family but not H and W. This is so hard.
