You don't need that to GAL. Unless by GAL you mean date other people. That would do you any good.
"I need to move on but am I giving up?"
Again, by "moving on", do you mean date? If you do, then you are giving up.
"I don't want a divorce for religious and insurance reasons."
Not good enough reasons. It comes down to you. Do you still believe in YOUR M with him? If you do, there will be a long road ahead and many things you need to do. But if you don't have the patience, then finalize the papers and get someone else. The problem is that because you haven't resolved your issues from this H, they will be carried on to your next relationship.
Right now, your post was filled with how you felt you were "deceived" and that your M was a "sham", etc. because he found someone else to love. That's not the case. Both of you M and stayed together because of love. Period. Over time, that love deteriorated. It's easy to get that back and it can start with you. However, it is not the easiest of roads to travel.
So the bottom line is...do you want to save your M to your H.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
