Need Help before I blow a fuse.

[20&lost]

W came home yesterday almost 5 hours after saying she was having lunch with OM and his friends. My D was home with 20 of her friends working on school project that my W always helps with. When W came home I was outside having a great time with my D and her friends. I did not ask where she had been or make any stupid comments (which is a first for me). I have been doing my 180's for a while now. I have had a few minor positives. I am really trying to give her time and space and show that I have a life. Many of my GAL projects have been at the house since I let them go for many years. I am planning to have a few drinks with friends tonight. I keep asking God for the right direction in my 180's, my GAL's, my PMA and whether I should consult a lawyer to protect myself. I guess after a few weeks of 180 I thought I would see some more improvement and in some areas I have but then it also appears she is seeing the OM/EA (maybe PA) more and more or my mind is seeing that. I have a tenancy of letting my imagination run wild which greatly increases my anxiety.