"I was never going to see it until something traumatic happened to force me to see clearly"
really triggered something deep inside of me. I feel exactly the same way and I'm ashamed of it. How do you feel about it? I feel like I should have been less self-centered about my own resentment and pain before BD so I could see HIS pain and HIS resentment and perhaps save this M before it got so diseased.
H has even said, "why did it take my leaving for you to take me seriously?" I can only answer him with "I don't know". Shameful. I hate that about my behavior and actions. The reality is though that I felt he was apathetic and unwilling to make any changes. Little did I know his apathy was actually disdain and silent planning to leave.
How will I ever trust his silence again?
*Tears streaming down my face as I read.*
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
