Shakspr #3; Love's Labours Lost

[Shakspr]

I can't seem to hear God. (I asked for prayer for this particular problem Sunday at church.) I don't feel abandoned. It's just that the scripture itself seems...not to help me in any way. Now, I have gained solace from the scriptures collected as "Thought Conditioners" by Norman Vincent Peale. I should probably go back to those. I have so much grief that it keeps coming to the forefront of my mind.

Prayer seems to calm me, center me. I focus first on thankfulness, followed by a request for forgiveness, a request for blessings on my children, and prayers for my wife, and prayer for myself comes last. I pray that the Lord be with her in this time of great trial, that she will choose to read and see ALL the word, not just the parts that give her comfort right now - she is leaning heavily on God's grace and mercy, as you might imagine. I have said it before...she prayed (and nagged. The prayer worked better!) me back into seriously reconsidering a relationship with Christ, but now she's in a worse fog than I was, acknowledging God but denying his power. To heal, to make things right.

labug and MrBond have reminded me again and again that her current mindset is her truth. Nevertheless, I don't accept a truth that flies in the face of everything she and I BOTH believe in. So I will take care of myself and my children and let God do what he does - because I'm sure he has a better plan than I do!