Just getting caught up on you. Tough to have a good visit with H and then go back to the solitude and confusion. I completely understand that.
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Excruciating to sit around waiting for him to decide whether or not I'm worthy while I hone and perfect my relationship skills with a tiny bit of hope to get to share them with HIM for the sake of our family!!
It reads to me, that your focus is still very much on H.
Not one drop of your worth depends on another person's decision. Not one.
You are a special one, Ss. Your intuition, humor, tenacity....you're really doing great with a horrible set of circumstances.
The R skills, and all the self-work you are doing, really needs to be for you. Regardless of H.
The key in saving your sanity, is to focus on you. Work hard to get more detached. Use this time to discover....not only R skills, but who is Ss? Dig deep and learn about YOU. It is so important.
It takes time. Keep going, Ss. You'll get there, I know it.
