Perfect example of what a roller coaster this is. Even when you are detached. I have been doing well. Today I felt free and independent. Then I had a little wine. I just had some feelings I haven't felt in forever. OMG, what is wrong with me? I just felt like xh should be here with me. Not there. I wanted to text him that, like he would be receptive. I know, I know... so crazy and out of whack.
Here is the weird thing... I just felt like he was feeling it. Is that weird? Does he think about me? No, I know that. He is still saying how unhappy he was with me. I am crazy, I know.
I got it out and it has passed. Over it. Really. Hhhuuuu..
Upward and onward.
Just when I have made so much progress.... that came out of nowhere... after ssssooooooo long from having those feelings. Darn you, chardonnay!
