CMS, the sleep deprivation just destroys you. Don't wait until 4 am to take something. You owe it to yourself to get enough sleep to handle this stress, to care for yourself so you can care for your family.

I got some good results with Melatonin. Benadryl helped me on nights I just could not sleep. Both are inexpensive and safe.

Also... have you looked into tapping?

I found this guy on youtube, and his little tapping videos help me a lot. There are other tappers out there, like this gal, in case you don't like the first guy.

M:54, H:55
T:33, M:27
12/13 BD: EA
01/14 BD: PA, H leaves
03/14 H & OW break up
05/14 H says he will file for D
08/14 H initiates D
09/14 H wants to R
12/14 Still bungling our way through R