Need help. Scared, confused pt 2

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I met my now wife as well during my first marriage and like you I handled my first marriage poorly. There was multiple affairs while we were stationed in Alaska and I stuck through it. But many things kept piling up. My first deployment to Iraq was ugly and I needed time to adjust when I got back. I didnt have the strength to keep the marriage working as I had for the last 14 years prior. (marrried at 17 because she became pregnant.)W2 and current wife was a friend that I eventually had an EA and when I left my wife I went to her. Things were rough when I went to Iraq my second time shortly after the first. She had the baby premature and things were rough from there. She was a WAW 6 months after second deployment. We pieced things I changed a ton and things went well for a few years till now. So I feel your pain. God had blessed my second union many times but I feel the inner turmoil from war and the way i did my first divorce wrong stuck with me some. It also though makes me even more resolved not to let this M end without a fight. Will be praying for you.