standing for me

[Jefe]

I'm not even sure why I get so down, because, all in all, everything is okay. I'm doing fine on my own, just mourning the idea of the marriage and not being able to provide my daughter with the family experience I had growing up with married parents. So I'm sad about the loss of illusion. But life does go on, and years down the road this will have just been another chapter in my life.

I think it's completely ok to mourn and grieve the loss. I'm sad over the loss of my wife. It's almost like a death but strangely worse.

I admire your strength, courage, and insight, Ahoy.