Thanks fth, Sooner or later things will have to get easier then they are now. I fight every day to NOT allow the sitch my W has put everyone in change ME or who I want to be. It would be so easy to just allow my anger to consume me. To become vindictive. Believe me, in the beginning I thought about doing things that I would regret now for sure! I try to remember that I loved this person for most of my adult life and made a promise to until death. I didn't promise only if she "loved me back".
Right now I just don't have the money to really GAL as much as I would like. I'm trying to fix this and while it would be easy to blame my W or my sitch it really is up to me to make my life work the way I want it to. I still get angry at times. I still have times that I just can't understand how my W has become the way she is but I can't control anything but myself. I hope that my W is going to start acting the way she did yesterday more often. I do know that whether she does or not, I can always choose to act the way I think is best, no matter how she or anyone else around me does!
