standing for me

[Ahoy]

raliced, Maybe one day our paths will cross and we can celebrate getting through this rough patch while listening to some awesome polka! (And yes, banjo is my new obsession -- I also play cello, guitar, uke, fiddle, and theremin -- in varying degrees of amateur-ness.)

Card, I wish I could say I was consistent with the detachment. Some days I do really well, other days I manage to sink into a deep funk. Honestly, I'm not even sure why I get so down, because, all in all, everything is okay. I'm doing fine on my own, just mourning the idea of the marriage and not being able to provide my daughter with the family experience I had growing up with married parents. So I'm sad about the loss of illusion. But life does go on, and years down the road this will have just been another chapter in my life. There will be others, and I'm excited about the new people and experiences that await me. And I'm not going to sit around waiting to find them either!

I will wait to see how things evolve with H, I will be patient, but I am just choosing not to hop aboard his crazy train. I have my own train to guide.