It doesn't feel like a fairytale anymore...

[fthnluv]

Matt, you are so right about remembering that it is on God's timeline, not ours. If ever. I recently told my sister that this is H's journey to go on but, clearly, it is also MINE. I need to learn a few more lessons too. I have already learned many things that will make me a much better person and W to whomever God leads me to one day.

Also, keep in mind that underneath it all, your H isn't really happy. Happy people don't do what he is doing. He is in pain and looking to make that pain stop and the more we try and "help" them stop the pain, the more they will resent us as we are who they have chosen to blame. The best thing you can do is just get out of the way and let him learn on his own how wrong what he is doing is.

This is a truth I am learning too. I was just saying to my favorite sweet lady at church this morning that I am struggling with the whole idea of holding on to hope for my M to H and also believing with my whole heart that God is working for my good in this. I think it feels to me like if I let go and let God direct my path, no matter where it leads, that somehow it feels like I am giving up on the hope and faith that that path WILL lead to a restored M to H. Giving up on MY hopes and dreams of a life with H to defer to God's plan is still scary to me.

Off to take care of these 3 little blessings... I need to remind myself of my blessings often as I can often only see my pain.