If you hadn't found out about the affair, then you'd be in a sham marriage, and you deserve better than that. This is an opportunity for growth for you and to discover what you really need and want in a relationship and work on things that will help you be a better partner as well. That's the only thing that you can do in your current state right now, so no point fretting and lamenting about what might have been. Keep your chin up!
M: 43 H: 39 D: 14 Married 15 Together 16 BD: 6/2014 S: 8/2014 OW revealed 10/2014 Instigated dissolution 12/2014, in progress So over it!