Nitty in a Nutshell #2

[Nitty]

The first part of last week we had some bad arguments. If we weren't arguing, I was in turmoil, not saying what I was thinking and acting like I didn't have a million thoughts bouncing through my brain all the time.

One evening I just told him what I thought, that his anger during the fights is corroding my love for him, how I fought so hard to keep us together and he was so punishing and harsh, as if I was the one who betrayed him. I told him it hurt me so bad I felt like I wanted to leave him.

He backed away from me and got really, really angry. He informed me that his life had become an onslaught of one attack after another from me, and this last attack just hurt him more than he'd ever been hurt!

And if I felt this way just because of a little argument? Why, he could never feel safe again! That he would constantly worry that Nitty might run away after every little argument! And just because he got a little mad?!?

It made him wonder: how he could be so committed to us when Nitty obviously wasn't committed at all! What the hell was he busting his a$$ for in this reconciliation if Nitty was so willing to give up so easily!?!

Does he understand the concept of IRONY at all?

My resentments became explosive. I could no longer reason them out like I did that day Mr. Gritty thanked me for waiting for him.

I went home, very angry. The fight continued through the evening via text and then through some ultra drama queen moves on his part, but I don't see the need to go into it.