Stay dark (no contact) this is going to be a long road. Remember you are in an endurance marathon right now, not a sprint. Let him keep coming to you for contact. You can use the down time to start the healing process.
We are here for you. Trust me when I say I understand the pain. Hardly a day goes by that I don't tear up or break down. But it gets better, I promise.
Have you found and read Sandi's 37 rules?
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3