Thank you, uR. It helps to know that it's still ok to cry. I did. It didn't last as long. I may again, but I'm past that first wave. I've been perking up, thanks to some friends.
I see where I am not serving myself....I'm not quite accepting that I can't "watch" him become whole. Even knowing I can't help him, now I feel like I just want to peek in and see it, and watch him progress?? Wtf is that....crazy, huh?
Get out the way, Shining!
I like the idea of stating I don't want to talk about H. I think the girls I'm planning to call would be respectful of that, and probably more comfortable for them too.
I agree on the job, and the sons transitioning milestones. Once those are settled, I am going to find a class or something for just me. I do have a lot to get through for a bit.
I cried for less than 15 minutes....should I be worried? I didn't want to stay there...maybe it will come back. If it does, it does.
