Today was Senior Day at s17's football game. Parents walk their senior out on the field and as they announce each senior (football player). It was just s17 & me. Again, something I didn't expect in the past (at the banquet, they show the picture of the player and parents), to be alone w son. I am OK with it. In fact, I am honored to be with him. Despite the little rebellion flavor he is showing these days, he really is a good kid.
XH did not walk out with us. That was NOT his choice. It was s17's choice. Apparently s17 turned in the form with the info on it and listed only me to walk out. That's the way he wanted it.
Last night, when xh picked him up, he asked s17 about it. S17 told him that it was only going to be me. XH got really angry at s17. He yelled at him and told him to make sure he fixed it this morning so that he could walk out with us.
S17 did not change it. I saw him prior and he told me he didn't change it and that xh was going to be mad. I told him to leave me out of it (In a light way). I said I would support whatever he wanted to do and that it was between them.
I got a great pic of the two of us. He towers over me! My goodness! But he is so cute. He came right up to me and gave me a big hug. That's my boy. And that's the funny thing, he does not get embarrassed- he is a self-proclaimed "momma's boy". But he tells the guys at school that I'm his aunt. He had some boys say some pretty inappropriate things about me before, and it set him off. Since then, he didn't want to say I was his mom. I think the cat is out of the bag at this point.
So, I did see xh there. At home games now, he parks in a spot where he can watch from his truck. Must be a sad life when you have to constantly hide from everyone. Home games- truck, away games- other team's side.
xh and s17 are going to the movies tonight. S said since he can't do anything anyways, he may as well go, because he'd just be sitting home.
S17 also told me some things about their convo last night. Apparently, it wasn't exactly the escape from me I was thinking. I don't know if s17 wants to express his anger towards xh rather than me or what. But, it is good for him to get this out- and towards the right person!
Apparently xh was bringing up the baby sitch. S made some rude comment and xh was defensive. I think it probably hurts s to see xh seem so protective over the baby sitch and not his kids- well the ones we know are his.
S17 said that xh made everything about him. Well.... I guess that means xh still has a loooooooooonnnggg way to go. I was hoping that some of the signs I was seeing were that of accountability and movement. Probably wishful thinking. Oh well that's their deal.
But I just can help feel for my kids. This is so terrible for them. We were all so stinking close! And for him to walk out and set up shop with a new family. I know my kids are feeling it with this baby coming soon. Ugh... I just don't know how to make it better for them.
I swear- if she is in the hospital having that baby when I am there having surgery.... well, I guess nothing. There is nothing I can do but accept that it is a possibility and not think about it.
So sad for xh to not be able to participate in s17's senior events. He said, "The kids will be fine!" when he was adamant to go. Well, they will be fine. But their r isn't.
