Ok....I get it. It's not about me. It's not disrespecting me as the goal. My feeling is the byproduct of his actions and his need to not feel pain.
That...right there ^^^, girl, you good.
Listen, it is going to hurt. How can it not? You love him. You are human.
I wouldnt want to be her for a million dollars. I mean, really. Look at the shell of a man she is with. That just aint gonna turn out well.
We have all felt as you did. Seeing him and thinking for just a moment, that maybe he is feeling it.
Then we realize that doesnt serve us well, right? We want them to be whole one day.
As far as reaching out to old friends? I think its a good idea. I dont think there is anything wrong with saying, if you do, that you dont want to talk about your h. I have. People understood. If they dont, you can decide not to continue.
I think once you get a job and your sons are settled, you will begin to feel better.
I know you got this, S. I also know that its ok to feel how you do. Cut yourself some slack, my friend. Nothing wrong with having a good cry from time to time, ya know?
