Shakspr #3; Love's Labours Lost

[Shakspr]

Also, I am up and down all the time and therefore she doesn't want to talk to me at all. Guess that's why goin' dark works for some people. Gives that WAS time to remember the good stuff.

She told me she would start packing her stuff tomorrow. I said I'm sure you'll do whatever you need to do. She asked why I think it's ok to say that, to not help her with this stuff. I said I will not help you dismantle my family. She said, "You think you don't already have responsibility for that?" I told her "I have taken responsibility for my part in this, but I remain willing to work through it and make it right. You aren't, and that's the difference."

I tried to remind her of some of the good stuff - times I have absolutely come through for her in sickness and in health. She said "What does any of this have to do with anything?"

I said "I'm up and down because I am hurting badly. How can you be so stoically content with all this?" She responded with "I need to go. I don't want to have this conversation with you." And she left to go to Costco.

Bad DB'n. Just confessing, I suppose. I am an emotional wreck and I do not have any hope that this marriage can ever be repaired. That makes me so sad that I have tears streaming right now as I type.

I have completely lost her.