Shakspr #3; Love's Labours Lost

[Shakspr]

Still shouting out to MrBond to check out my page 4 questions.

Am currently back in one of those moods (not acted upon) where I would love to just sit and talk solutions with my STBX. Where we could find common ground. Discuss what a marriage can be.

But I can't, and I won't. I will keep working on me. Ordering some of the recommended books from 'round here and trying to figure out what made me get to where I am. HOWEVER..

Reading the author's description about how he came to write a book about Nice Guys...that's ME. Holy crud. That's first on the list. Along with developing boundaries. I created my own resentment by not being a man in my relationship with W.

And, as I sit here typing, she pointed out something wrong with the furniture (cat scratches)...I said that a friend of mine - call him Al, he is excellent with verneers and such. We are going to work together on his place and mine. Also Al and I will be squaring the doors. She responds "Well, that's needed to be done for years." I said, "What's the point in telling me something like that?" She said, "It's just like the broken medicine cabinet that's been that way forever." I said, yes, either of us could have fixed the medicine cabinet. She walked off muttering.

Absolutely nothing I say at this point is going to be acceptable to her hearing.

I made the mistake of asking how she is doing. That devolved into a not-heated discussion of how I should be acting in the situation. Which led to how I've been acting for a really, really long time.

Am I completely unlovable? Apparently so.