Keeping it real

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I had a sleepless night. The consequences of my actions/I actions are powerful. I realize that I can stay emotionally detached from her whe still taking action as needed to protect my family.

I formed a graph of actions i could take in my mind. They range by severity, and they range by directness. For example, directly I could talk to her casually, talk to her seriously (lay out consequences), take bold action such as moving back in, serving her papers, or staging and intervention. Indirectly I could inform her friends and family (or even, say, just talk to her dad), I could arrange an intervention, or I could call social services.

Right now I want to talk to my DB Coach. She is AMAZING at knowing what to do in tough spots. I will see if she can squeeze me in as a priority call. My plan would be to look at my DB appointments as 'checkpoints' I have to get through. And she can help prepare me for what lies Inbetween. I also talked to both my parents, and at their recommendation (both my parents think she's seriously out of control and a threat to herself and others, ie the kids) I have an appointment with my lawyer Monday. I need to protect myself legally from being considered neglectf to leave them In her care and financially from fines and damages she may cause (the hospital bills are rolling in from the attempt, more will lie ahead).

But IM doing ok for myself and rising to this. I still have a lot of personal growth ahead but have come a ways in 4 months too. I couldn't have handled this when I started. In a way I feel god is giving this to me to help me grow. Oh, and I've decided to take the new job DESPITE all of this. I think I can manage it and wouldn't feel good passin on the opportunity out of fear and self doubt.

Thank you all for your support and coaching. Celebrate what you have in your world today and have a good weekend n