The motto here is "when something isn't working, try something different". If you do some 180's and maybe open up a bit and try to chat w/your h about things that he might be interested in, he may very well reach out to you a wee bit. Try not to engage in relationship talks because he may very well shut down and walk away.
Keep your expectations low and try to think of him as a skittish kitten who needs some coaxing to come near you. Drop some of those kindness kibbles down and see if he'll reach for them.
Good luck!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
