Shining- you are a girl's girl. You have got my back, for sure. You know how to pick me up when I am down, put things into perspective, and help me get some mental stability. I will forever be grateful. It's amazing that we meet people here and they become such an integral part or our journey. Thank you.
Hope- you are right on... again. The few posts you have made to me have had an impact on me. Has he always been that way... well... it's hard to answer, exactly. You know, he kind of goes in and out of things. We had a great friendship. We always bounced things off one another. But then there would be time that it would seem like he would get very insecure and anger would come out. It would be out of left field and very random. So, kind of, yeah, to answer your question. But not always.
I noticed, when we lived in Alaska, that once October would hit, he would go into a sort of depression. It came to my attention because of the long dark winters there. They would have lots of advertisements about depression and getting help throughout the winter, because of the suicide rate. I realized, our first October there, that something was going on. By the next year, I was like, hey, I see a correlation! I brought it to xh's attention, and I think he realized it too. Since then, every Oct-Feb'ish would be the same, even living in NY (not too different from Alaska).
Now, can you guess what month was BD? That's right! October. It will be one month, very soon. (Not to mention the same month xh's nephew was killed in car accident the year before- they were VERY close.)In fact, we used to joke and say xh was n's real dad, bc they looked alike. (He would be 1 year older than hww-- ewww).
I wondered what would become of this October with xh living with her. Now between that and baby soon, I think that is why I am seeing some different behaviors? Donno... not close enough to tell. And WANT the space.
There was communication today via email w/ xh. I did respond cordially- typical short and to the point. Several exchanges re s17. Then he said something about s that was so obnoxious and disgusting (I am not even going to post!). So I answered his question then added, "And really...? Are you serious?"
He knew what I meant. He did not respond. He probably realized (maybe). Then later I sent the update and he just said, "OK".
OMG, if s17 ever saw that... I don't think he would EVER speak to him again!!!!
