On the brink, need a miracle

[Onguard]

Thanks for the advice 25! Yes, GAL is something I need to do more of. Going through this has made me feel like hiding but I know that is the wrong thing to do. Also, having been with my w for 20 years, a ton of my activities involved her or our married friends. Now I am trying to find new activities and new friends. I exercise, play golf, go fishing, go out to dinner, go to concerts or ball games. It's not easy keeping a PMA while this is going on but I am trying each day. I was battling depression PRIOR to the bomb drop, so as much as I hate excuses, the truth is that it is affecting me. Anyone who has ever had depression will understand the toll it takes on your self confidence and energy level. That is my biggest challenge, overcoming the way I feel in order to act as if.